Currently I am reading: A history of the jews. My current review is that the author's philosemitism is so extreme it makes me not trust him. For example he has strong opinions on 13th century doctrinal debates, calling one side "pious" and the other side (e.g. kabbala, hasidism) unserious or not true jews. He believes Noah was definitely a historical person and that Islam is a failed branch of Judaism. Also his writing currently makes up like 90% of all instances of the word "adumbrated" I've read in my life.

Some of my favorite songs.

• Nearer To Thee. It sweeps me away. It makes me feel one with the crowd. It makes me believe in god.
• Clipo clipo. It's feels insane that a song this deeply affecting is about a topic so obscure to me (apparently Ivorian independence).
• Undone in sorrow. Prototypical short story, played with candor.
• Tumble in the Wind. The songwriter's history strongly influences my understanding of songs like these. This man's life is full of tragedy and sorrow. This song is too. The beginning makes my heart sway, powerfully moves my chest to beat with him. Also Box Canyon by him.
• Fireflies Made Out of Dust. I can't explain this one yet.
• Western Island. A real, compelling vision of a life of solitude. I could live on a western island. I need to feel the ground.
• Freak Show. I find this song deeply disgusting. A connection to a world and a group of people I used to know.
• 90210 . To me this song is about walking slick, rainy streets late at night without a friend for a thousand miles.
• Bones in the Ocean. One of the songs I listened to wandering in Colorado. I made a Finnish friend there, and then she said she wanted to kill all the rationalists.
• Daddies. Rocking, makes my body sway, brings me into the music.

Sophia's feelings

Mostly I feel placid, but sometimes I start to Need, I become Active like an Animal and I need to manipulate flesh. Sometimes I write down how I feel and these are from those times.